Before this picture, I took many others but they had either too little lighting, too dark, or a single light source in one space. I wanted to take a picture of where light is hitting in different spots, how it moves, and its range of direction. This photograph I took has many ranges in light, the white wall which the light seems to be dull versus to the light in the hallway and within the double doors.

I met a friend two years ago and they always supported everything I do. Usually, I have terrible depression and anxiety, sometimes I feel like I can’t do anything. My friend knows about this since I tell them my problems, usually, they send me gifts and on my birthday they send me a special bracelet. Not only were they visually beautiful but they had inspirational quotes behind them. I feel like these bracelets are a form of support from far away and every day when I wear one they make me stay positive even on my difficult days.

Each bracelet shown in the photo shares a story, all together they bring me strength. The design and colors describe the description of the quotes within the bracelets.

Since I’ve known my friend for two years, they also know about my art. I struggled with my art a lot, there are days where I hate or think I can’t improve anymore. When my friend sent me these bracelets I believed they helped me boost my confidence and made sure I needed to be a little nicer to myself.

𝗠𝘆 𝟱 𝗠𝗼𝘁𝗶𝘃𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻𝘀

This is quite an overshare about myself but I dated before. I dated my partner for almost two years and they decided to custom make a ring for me. I never had a partner give me so much love and on top of that creating something for me. The gem is orange, in general, it was my favorite color before because of the warmth it holds. I’m not with them anymore, we had no complications except for being long-distance which hurt our relationship a little. I still hold this ring to this day because they were the very first person who genuinely loved me and accepted me.

This ring holds a story of me and them, it makes me remember all the beautiful times we had together and I could never forget. The aftermath of this ring is when we broke up, I felt terrible but it was for the best because our long-distance relationship wasn't really working out.

As an artist in general I believe this ring does help me in ways, when I notice the ring within my view It makes me remember love. I don’t know much about love but those feelings I can definitely put in for my art, understanding these feelings are improvements.

I mentioned my friend in the photo with the bracelets and how they give me gifts, they also gifted me with an adorable humidifier. Knowing my personality I really do enjoy cute things and mainly pink items. This item is important not because its job is to calm my atmosphere but the care it spews.

Whenever I look at this humidifier it makes me appreciate the gentle love given to me; it makes me also appreciate those who do care about my well-being and want me to do a great job in the life I’m going for.

Like I’ve mentioned I do get depressed and have anxiety, as an artist it’s hard as well since there are days when I lose my focus or discourage my own work. I tried using this humidifier for the first time, the surroundings in my room felt calm and refreshing, thus I could focus well.

Back in 2018, I traveled to California for a college trip, during my time there I discovered these beat headphones at the airport. One of my dreams was to have headphones not just because I thought they looked cool but I wanted something that could last long in my life. I never regret buying these headphones because they actually last very long and distract me from my surroundings.

I’ve had these headphones for about 3 years and one of the best things is they’re actually my backup headphones when I break my main pair of earbuds or when they break. That’s probably why they last long because I feel like these headphones' purpose is to help me whenever I’m in need of it.

During my time as an art student at MCAD, taking a media class meant working with a bunch of quality programs. We worked on projects that include sound, I actually used my beat headphones while working with my audio project. It really doesn’t matter what headphones you use as long as you can hear the sound, though I feel they really helped me with the quality of sounds.

The Movement In Light

My very good friends gave me these as gifts and I keep them by me all the time. I really like squirrels mainly because it's interesting watching them from afar, it's amusing. The sloth was from an online friend who I finally met this year(2021) and there really is no meaning other than it was just a gift given to me.

These small stuffed animals feel as if they're a small token of love given by my friends. I appreciate the small gifts since they come from friends far away from me. Knowing I have people who care about me from afar makes me happy and keeps me going.

For being an artist it’s great to have a form of motivation and happiness so you don’t bring yourself down as often. I also think it’s good to have random objects around you as they could be a form of inspiration, I think these stuffed animals one day will give me the inspiration I need if I run out of ideas.

My Best Work At MCAD ( Photo Documentation )

As a freshman at MCAD, I didn't know what to expect at all, in the beginning of my year I actually felt
like I was going to puke and I kept discouraging myself. Every day I kept thinking I won't do well or
can't make it; I even saw my classmate's works and I compared myself to them thinking they're so
much better than me. But as I kept progressing and focused on what I needed to do things got a lot
better, I even started to enjoy my time more there even though I had frustrating moments too.

One of my personal favorite classes was 2D, our first project was to work with black squares.
Every step we kept moving and manipulating them to turn it into something more interesting.
The ending project is this very photo I'm showing, I have never enjoyed a project so much to the
point I actually loved the end results. I can see all of my hard work put into this and it's been one of
my favorite art pieces as an artist.

This project was something I had never done before, it honestly felt like a lot of brain work and trying
to understand what I could improve on than what I can be better at. I feel like this project made me
learn to create something with my bare hands and not think so much about it. If you think too hard on
something it would feel as you're burning yourself out and won't feel as motivated.